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you’re listening to women’s dream

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Enlightenment

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dream decoding deep discussions and

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spiritual stories of self-discovery

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to inspire your personal enlightened

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Journey

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I’m your host Megan Mary founder of

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women’s dream analysis

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let’s bring in the light

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foreign

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welcome today I have Susan Gold she is

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an author and consultant and here with

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us to discuss everything about dreams

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their wonderful power and the

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transformative ability they have to

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overcome trauma as well

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Hi Megan it’s nice to be here and thanks

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for having me yes I’m so glad you’re

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here Susan

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you have such an interesting story just

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from what I’ve read on your about page

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and I want just to give you a chance to

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let the listeners know a little bit

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about your background but one of my

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first questions which will lead you down

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that path is what does Enlightenment

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mean to you

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I love that question and I love that you

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ask it every episode it’s just such a

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tradition so thank you

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um Enlightenment to me means an opening

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of Truth and oftentimes that truth for

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me can be rumbling within my system but

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I can’t sort of place my fingertips and

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my full hand on it it’s not quite

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tangible

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so Enlightenment is when I can touch

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feel and taste it and it’s that aha yes

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absolutely it’s that connecting with the

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Unseen in that unseen way

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that’s awesome

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so tell the listeners a little bit about

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your background and and or if there was

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a particular time in your Enlightenment

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Journey or pivotal moment that brought

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you to where you are today and the work

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that you’re doing today

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wow well it’s it’s been a long road

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um

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but I would have to say I always knew

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there was something different about

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Susan I had hesitancy about being here

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for this Earthly walk I was the middle

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of five children with

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to pseudo-adults at the helm doing the

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best they could my dad is a genius

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astrophysicist but he also has an issue

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with alcoholism

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and sexual addiction and narcissism my

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mother soothed through food she was a

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compulsive overeater and back then they

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prescribed diet pills which was speed

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straight on

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so I was raised by a speed-free Canon

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alcoholic and I also believe my mother

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had mental illness and

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I was very baboyant and full of white

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and I have a recall way back

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um my three brothers and sister all have

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very different experiences and memories

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of growing up in our home

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and I have recall back to 18 months

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um it didn’t feel safe

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um there was abuse of every type filling

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the crevices and crannies

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honestly my first suicidal ideation came

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at six

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and I remember it clearly

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um I used to talk to the angels

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and wish myself up onto the clouds hope

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for escape I had bright light in me and

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I knew I would depart as soon as

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possible and I was very intuitive a

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super empath just

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sponged it all up

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and um I was quite telepathic early on

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until that got me into too much trouble

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so I shut all that down

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and that upbringing was the perfect

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launching pad

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to set me into

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exploration and walking with you know

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open curiosity

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as far as myself my trajectory why I was

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on this planet and what my mission

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really and truly was so with that I

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faced my own alcoholism and addiction my

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own battle with clinical depression and

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ultimately narcissistic abuse and have

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experienced lots of traditional and

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non-traditional healing modalities

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um to be where I am today and I had a

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very successful career as a television

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and film producer and was known for

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matching celebrities

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um to Brands but I think I’m just now

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fulfilling my mission which is

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um helping others transform similar

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traumas that I have

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that’s a beautiful path to take and I

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think it that’s wonderful that that’s

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what happens we it’s a gift we don’t

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know it at the time but whatever it is

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that we are going through it’s a gift if

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we can share it then and if we can then

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help others that are going through that

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and stick around and and help them and

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that’s really

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what we’re called to do once we make it

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through right

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yeah it’s just being willing to trench

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the trudge and also to really have New

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Perspective I mean for me I feel why

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wait

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till you get to the other side for Life

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review like just do it here and now and

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let that weighted bag drop yeah

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right and

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placing ourselves here and understanding

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that even though we might not want to be

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here that there’s a reason we are still

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here

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and finding that reason and accepting

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that sort of I don’t want to call it

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groundedness but

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that we are a spirit in a human body and

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we’re in a human body for this time for

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a reason versus the other way around

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yeah that’s a beautiful realization once

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you get it it shifts your whole

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perspective and your Dynamic and yeah

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you’re walking in a whole new zip code

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yes it really does shift everything

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for me that was part of Enlightenment I

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would say

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well what role have dreams played in

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your Enlightenment I know that you have

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a dream that you have graciously

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submitted for us to discuss today and I

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I think

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you probably have a lot of experience

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with recording your dreams as well over

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the past few decades you said so let’s

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let’s talk about your experiences there

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yeah I just wish I was as good at

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interpreting them all so I feel graced

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and humbled to be in your company Megan

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and I really honor your your gifts and

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your expertise

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um I had repetitive dreams as a kid

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always a Pursuit being being chased and

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I had very vivid dreams and lucid dreams

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um in adulthood

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um same repetitive lots of burning fires

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were repeatedly returning to this Cabin

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in the Woods that I used to rent in the

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Catskills to escape New York City and um

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yeah but the one that that I wanted to

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speak with everyone about today was a

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quite lucid dream I had

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um I was living in Los Angeles I thought

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I had gone there to

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um take a huge career opportunity and it

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was a great career opportunity but it

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was really to meet one of my greatest

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gurus and that was the man who would

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become my ex-husband

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and it was a very tough

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um divorce let’s just say that and I was

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able to retain the home that I had

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bought for our family

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um at the end of it and this was a few

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months after

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my ex-husband had left because he

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held camp in court in the master bedroom

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and I by choice was in a partial

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conversion in the garage on a mattress

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on the floor and that was the metaphor

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for their relationship and the dynamic

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and that’s what I was allowing and

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that’s what I walked through up and out

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of so

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I had Believe It or Not tremendous guilt

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stepping away from that and

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um my ex was one that I perceived to be

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a narcissist it’s my own opinion and he

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had turned my beloved uncle

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against me and it started happening even

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before the divorce proceedings and I

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could see it happening and it’s kind of

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standard in narcissistic abuse

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and so the dream

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um he and my uncle were standing

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like six feet away from me and I had

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huge guilt and shame wave over me and I

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was mum but I remember feeling so guilty

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that I had left so left the system left

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this toxicity

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I guess you’d call it survivor’s guilt

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and I woke up I was actually in my son’s

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bedrooms on his full-size bed he was

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sleeping in my room because he had had

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he had had a terror and you know he had

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eventually went to sleep so I was

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sleeping in his room we reversed and I

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woke to this wetness in the room and

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this sort of soft golden white Angelic

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presence and this golden essence

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around that being

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and I knew clearly that I I was not

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still in the dream but the message the

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telepathic message

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was forgive yourself

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you’ve walked through it all

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all is well

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forgive yourself and then the essence

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was gone and then I was really

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clearly awake

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um but that dream really stuck with me

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um more than probably most dreams of my

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life and it never repeated

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hmm that’s a very powerful dream

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very very healing though and as you know

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that the

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to you healing yourself it can be your

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Spirit guides as well

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but it’s it can be that intervention but

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it can also just be your heart

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connecting with your higher self telling

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that

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you can

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be okay with this that you don’t need to

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carry that heavy guilt where was the I

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know you said you were in your son’s

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bedroom but in the dream what was the

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setting

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it was just an outdoor setting I didn’t

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even know where we were and it was a

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moderate temperature wasn’t cold wasn’t

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hot was comfortable and the the lighting

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was a bit dim

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um and I just was really targeted into

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the distance I mean I was surprised to

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see those two figures and there they

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were together so it’s it surprised me

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that there they were

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together and they were silent the fact

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that we were silent and the the

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communication was telepathic or

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intuitive

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and and that it just morphed into

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me Awakening to feel this energetic

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foot of the bed and then in the room

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mm-hmm

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focused on the distance

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were they far away from you or were they

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were they were approximately four to six

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feet

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from where I was standing in the dream

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and they just had normal clothing on

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nothing that was would stand out you

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know just trousers and shirts nothing

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elaborate do you remember what you had

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on by any chance

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I I didn’t have anything that was

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notable I I had like a comfortable dress

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on but it wasn’t a note

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[Music]

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so obviously the one of the most

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important things in my method is first

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off the memory

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you had told me earlier that this was

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quite a while ago years ago in your past

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but you still remember it very vividly

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and the second aspect is mood and so of

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course

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you look at the emotion and usually

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sometimes you have to amplify that

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emotion to actually understand it

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because it might seem mild in the dream

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in this case it’s already Amplified you

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are already completely engulfed with

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that feeling and so we don’t really need

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to amplify it further you know that you

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were feeling that heavy guilt and shame

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and the gray that you say was sort of

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surrounding you and the gray that they

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appeared to have

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is really reminiscent of you’re not

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wanting to give your energy to that

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anymore not wanting to really

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animate that relationship anymore

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and you were sort of taking taking in

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all that emotion at that time but you

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were

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it was representative it was a

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metaphorical representation of them

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being Gray

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the gray many times in dreams a lot of

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all colors can have symbolism

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and

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I default to a color theory that I’ve

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studied where they actually incorporate

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a number of questions around that color

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to help you associate what might be part

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of that color

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and some of the some of the questions

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for gray are really quite telling uh I

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want to Shield myself from those

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feelings

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which of course really definitely did I

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feel emotionally distant only an

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observer

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and so you of course were because there

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was some distance between you you didn’t

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speak you were just observing them they

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didn’t have to say anything to you for

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you to feel those emotions at that

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moment

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it is as if I am standing aside watching

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myself mechanically go through the

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motions which also

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you were you were there just

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experiencing them I want to remain

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uncommitted uninvolved shielded and

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separated from the situation which you

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very much did

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you wanted to remove yourself from that

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relationship there was the guilt that

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you felt about your relationship with

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your uncle and when I asked you you know

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it’s very important some when you have

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people in your dreams to think of three

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adjectives to describe those people

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because sometimes those people aren’t

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literally those people sometimes those

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people are representing the aspect of

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yourself that is like those other people

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and however you would describe them so

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if you would describe them as for

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example a very easy going Carefree

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person and you see them

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it could be that you’re longing to

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connect with that part of yourself that

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you need to reincorporate that part of

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yourself now if it’s a negative aspect

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of that person then it could be that you

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want that you’re struggling to

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disassociate that aspect of yourself

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and so when I uh asked to describe

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um

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those people

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or we can now what how would you

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describe your uncle for example in three

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adjectives

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in the in the dream in this specific

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life

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oh

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um

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just off the top of your head three

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adjectives

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about to engage engaging uh

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opinionated

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and um

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fun

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okay good

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so then three adjectives about your

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husband that was ex-husband that was

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present in the dream

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Lewis follower

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uh

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self-important

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okay

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so in the next step of the method what I

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do is mirror those aspects back to you

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and ask what is it that this could

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represent in your life

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and so the question is

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was there an aspect of you that had was

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no longer

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engaging and fun

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was there an aspect of you that you felt

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guilty about being a clueless follower

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did you feel shamed about being a

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clueless follower

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did you feel guilty about no longer

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being fun and engaging

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so even though you did experience a very

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traumatic event that these two people

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were involved in and they were part of

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this triangle of conflict and emotion

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they also represent

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thing aspects of yourself in your

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subconscious

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and sometimes the things that Annoy Us

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most about people are because they’re

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actually aspects of ourselves that we’ve

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disassociated

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and so that’s what I would pull out of

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that rather than take the literal route

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which is very easy and just say well you

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know you had you were getting a divorce

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he just he created a conflict with your

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uncle they were both there you were

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feeling guilty done uh it can be very

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obvious but I think there’s a layer

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underneath that that needs to be

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uh brought up and it’s all in the small

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small details so it’s all in the words

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that you would choose even if I knew

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them it’s the ones you would choose even

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now to explain what they’re like

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and if you felt that way about them then

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those aspects are what you can pull out

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as far as their presence

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there

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that’s beautiful Megan that it’s so

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spot-on so fitting good good really

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wonderful job good thank you

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and go on to the next section I love

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that it carried on when you woke up and

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I love that you had this wonderful

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comforting experience upon waking

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because the mood aspect again is so

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important not just what happens in the

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dream but the mood when you wake up that

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is what you’re left with that’s the

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resonance that’s the waking

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because sometimes I call it a dream

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hangover but in this case it’s it’s more

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of a it’s more of a dream uh chill right

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it’s like a it’s like a dream

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um thrill because you have this

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wonderful visitation this wonderful

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emotional

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saving healing experience

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and then the colors change

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so you have the white and the golden and

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the sparkling and floating all of those

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words emote a completely different

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emotional aspect in a completely

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different

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state of energetic being

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and when we look at those same

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associative questions for white

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we get

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this is a new experience I’m becoming

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aware of my new feelings

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I have a new outlook and a new awareness

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awareness pure and innocence opened and

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accepting

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and so it’s that integration of those

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Shadow aspects of yourself the gray

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think of the gray as a shadow think of

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their personality aspects as your Shadow

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and then see you awaken in this glowing

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enlightened state where you’ve

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integrated those aspects of your Shadow

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and you no longer have to carry the

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weight of that disassociation you’ve

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achieved that healing which is the

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wholeness

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which is the transformation that the

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dream provided

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it’s like all the life experience just

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got woven embroidered

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into the fascination of this whole dream

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experience it’s unbelievable and now I

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understand why that dream was so

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profound

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and lives within me even now I’m I think

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I’m eight years out and I’m

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yeah yes and you’re you’re so fortunate

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to remember such a beautiful dream

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because some people remember

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horrible dreams right uh nightmares that

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stay with them for that period of time

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but the reason that you have kept a hold

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on it and the reason that you have not

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forgotten it is because it was your own

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self-healing it was your own elevation

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of awareness and it your higher self

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doesn’t want you to forget that it

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doesn’t want you to go back into that

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shadow

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um

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okay so now I’m going to pull an oracle

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card for you and since this time has

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passed and it was in the past you know

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we need to see

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what

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we want to hear today about this since

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we are revisiting it and you know time

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is not linear as we think it is so it

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really doesn’t matter how long ago was

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[Music]

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thank you

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00:25:06,179 –> 00:25:12,919
okay so it is Grace and gratitude

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and the saying is

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through gratitude Joy expands

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and when we look at

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this woman

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she’s

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got some

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beautiful

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sparkly air coming off her hand

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and I would say that that is

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the Sparkles floating

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from your dream

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and she has this beautiful path ahead of

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her

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as well as the very beautiful pink trees

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and

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now I’m going to let you tell me what

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00:26:01,500 –> 00:26:06,840
you see in that image and if that’s

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resonating with you

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00:26:06,840 –> 00:26:13,140
what it’s just profound and and there

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00:26:09,600 –> 00:26:15,960
are indeed no accidents and just the

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orchestration of your reading Megan is

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00:26:15,960 –> 00:26:24,900
is so Exquisite and profound and yes

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00:26:20,820 –> 00:26:28,500
this is absolutely the dream the the

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00:26:24,900 –> 00:26:30,779
dream incarnate with the gold Sparkles

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00:26:28,500 –> 00:26:35,179
and

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00:26:30,779 –> 00:26:39,600
it’s the Bliss of where I am now after

542
00:26:35,179 –> 00:26:43,020
moving through some really difficult

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00:26:39,600 –> 00:26:45,539
life experiences to trudge through and

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00:26:43,020 –> 00:26:50,400
that’s the radiant gift

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00:26:45,539 –> 00:26:53,700
of the soul my soul in this moment so

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00:26:50,400 –> 00:26:56,059
thank you for bringing this all full

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circle and so

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astutely and with such great intuition

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and goddess energy it just breathes all

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over you so thank you Megan thank you

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thank you I really appreciate your kind

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words so much I’m so glad that you

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resonated

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um with what we experienced here today

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it means so much to me that you were

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willing to share it not only with me but

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with all of our listeners and I hope

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that their experiences will resonate as

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well and that everyone will learn the

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the power the transformative power our

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dreams can have and not only that but

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the healing power that they’re bringing

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us every night that they can that they

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can bring us so

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thank you Susan so much for being here

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today

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it was my privilege and my pleasure and

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it won’t be forgotten and I’m really

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grateful to have been in your presence

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and the presence of your listeners thank

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you Megan

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thank you